A new journey

So my last diet crashed and burned. I am now trying to learn where things went wrong by looking at my past entries and what was going on in my life that I seemed to not want to "share with the class". So I have tried a new weight loss plan..a plan that is going to cost me through the pocket, but is showing some good results right now. Don't worry, it is legal and seems to be giving me more energy now than ever before! I will hopefully be writing more here and on another blog with other women who are having the same journey as me.

Day 9..What happened?

304.6 lbs

I know I messed up bad yesterday..I was starving at night plus I went out to have a few drinks with friends..it was just so frustrating that I didn't even bother writing anything down. I figured this weekend I am going to take off from this blog and just do what I want for now. I shall return on Monday..with hopefully a new look on all of this.

Day 8..No gain is good

303.6 lbs

So I stayed exactly the same today. I did eat a lot more last night than I have recently I almost felt like eating more after the bad date I had at lunch..I sometimes wonder if the weight is the only issue I have..I can have really great conversations with people, but as soon as they see my weight being a factor they run for the hills. Yes, I brought this upon myself, but there are other factors that are included in my weight gain..such as genetics. The weight factor skips a generation in my family..so I unfortunately was the one to get it. The men are surprisingly never affected..ugh..Today I am going to eat less fruity snacks and in its place put actual fruit..I will let you know how it goes tomorrow!

Day 7..Anything to show for it?

303.6 lbs...well at least it isn't .4!

So this is the end of my first full week on my weight loss plan. I have since lost 1.8 lbs since the start. Ugh I miss the days where cutting back actually made a difference! I am trying not to get discouraged. I haven't been working out..but I have been working 12 hour days..I find it odd that my last meal was at 5:00pm yesterday and I don't weigh any less..I had always thought that it wasn't healthy to eat past a certain time..oh well. In the next few weeks my workout will be walking around elementary schools..so now I do not have to plan to wake up early and drag myself out of bed. I am gonna look over this past week to see how my weight loss plans have changed and what I can do to change a few more things..like adding veggies and fruit..ugh. I am going to a wedding and a BBQ this weekend...someone kill me!

Breakfast
2 slices whole wheat toast
2 TBSP peanut butter
Snack
Fruity snacks
Lunch
1/2 taco salad
iced tea
Snack
Fruit snacks x2
Dinner
1 can tuna
3 slices whole wheat bread
pistachios
2 slices cheese
1 TBSP mayo
Snack
Almonds

Day 6..My body cannot make up its mind!

303.0 lbs

SO I lost the .4 lbs again. My body seems to be stuck on the .4 for some reason. I guess the cheeseburger and fries didn't matter when I was running around like a crazy person yesterday...and it looks like I will be doing the same thing today as well! Lots of snacks will be available to me in my car so no worries there. I will also be working through lunch and I am not sure what to actually do about that. I need to find some food that is good for you and I can take to work. I am not a big soup drinker and making sandwiches and sticking them in the cold fridge does not appeal to me. I may just make peanut butter since I do not have to put it in the cold. Yay this blog is giving me good ideas! I believe this is also day 5 without a smoke, since I had one the day I started this blog. Right now it is 7:45am and I haven't done anything yet today, but I am about to go and run out the door..awesome..hope everyone is having a great day!

Breakfast
1/2 yogurt
Snack
Fruit snacks
Snack
Fudge cookies
Lunch
2oz chicken with BBQ sauce..ick
salad
2 TBSP ranch
1 roll
1 TSP butter
1/2 serving ice cream
1/2 serving berry cobbler
Snack
Fruity snacks
Dinner
1 soda
3 slices of pizza with meat and veggies..yes i know..very bad

Day 5..Too good to be true

303.4

So it looks like I gained a little bit back..but that is to be expected. I did a lot of moving around and cleaning on Sunday plus I had so much energy that I stayed up later than usual. Since I am writing Monday's blog at 8:00pm I guess I can talk about my day. Our council had our annual golf tournament..which meant that I got to stay at one of the holes to see if anyone got a hole in one prize for a brand new truck..of course no one did, but I did get to spend the day talking with my boss which is nice. It was really hard for us to talk when we first started working together..but it has gotten better over the past two years. I am glad that I can depend on him to be a sorta mentor for me while I get to learn the ropes of the business. The diet today practically went out the window because I did not pack a lunch or dinner. I tried to eat light, but they gave us lunch at like 3:30 and by that time I was STARVING! So I am going to be honest here and hope that honesty will win over haha.

Breakfast
Fruity Snacks
Lunch
Cheeseburger
French fries..they were really gross and I didn't eat them all
soda
gatorade
Dinner
2 small sausages
1 slice white bread
pickles
lemonade

Day 4..And I thought I did bad yesterday

302.4 lbs

I did a lot of running around yesterday morning..which probably resulted in the weight loss. I forgot that the lunch wasn't yesterday..it is next week. Maybe I should be taking something for memory now. The pill I take to curb the sugar intake may have also affected the teeth clenching..well at least in my head it does. The clenching has lessened since yesterday and if I do not have a smoke today technically all the nicotine will be out of my system. Then the only thing for me to worry about is the oral fixation part that pretty much lasts forever..great. I woke up late today, so it looks like I will be skipping breakfast. I do not want to get into that habit, but it is already 10:30 and I already feel like eating a sandwich. I need to come up with something to do today to keep me busy, I may drive around til I find a few garage sales. Hope I don't find something I actually want! True Blood tonight should keep me indoors once the night hits so have a good Sunday everyone!

Breakfast - Skipped...it is nice to sleep in every once in awhile!

Lunch
2 slices of whole wheat bread
2 hard boiled eggs
2 TBSP Mayo
Fruity Snacks
Snack
Meduim limeade from Sonic..Was dying of thirst after shopping!
Fruity Snacks..good thing I had them with me or I would have caved at Sonic
Chocolate cookies 100 calories
Snack
Frozen Fruit bar
Almonds
Dinner
Salmon burger
2 slices of bread
1TBSP mayo
1 tspn A1 Sauce
1 bag cheez-it 100 calorie

Day 3..my teeth are KILLING me!

303.0 lbs.

Woohoo! Big weight loss in just two days. I know that it is just water weight, but still exciting! The only problem I am finding is that my teeth are clenching more and more. I am not sure why I am doing this, but I am thinking about buying some gum or possibly eating harder foods to chew (such as carrots) in order to make the clenching stop. I felt like I ate more yesterday, but all the things that I ate were healthier than the choices that I had made in the past. I also did a lot more moving around. I probably went up and down my stairs about 5 times yesterday. I can be very flexible with my job, so when I have a chance to stop by home for something I usually do. I now also eat lunch at home so that I can be in more control of what I eat. It has been helping so I guess I will continue to do just that. This will be a short blog today because I have to get ready for a benefit for a coworkers' grandson. I even learned how to draw certain animals so that I can face paint!
I also wanted to make a list of all the diets and medicine that I have used in the past..the funny part is that I cannot remember all of them:
grapefruit, cabbage, atkins, weight watchers, xenadrine, stackers, stackers 2, low carb, no carb, south beach, and various lean cuisine and smart ones meals..the only one that seemed to work at first was weight watchers. If I would have continued living with my grandfather I probably would have stayed with it. Oh and I have started taking SuperCitrimax in order to curb my sugar cravings..recommened by friends and doctors so I know I am ok. Oh, and no smoking yesterday!

Breakfast
2 slices of bread
1 TBSP of lite smart balance spread
1 hard boiled egg..white only
Snack
Fruity Snacks..yum!
Lunch
2 slices of bread
salmon burger
1 slice of cheese
1 TBSP mayo
Fruity Snacks
Snack
Frozen fruit bar
Weight Watchers Lemon bar
Dinner
6oz chicken (baked)
1 slice of cheese
1 TBSP mayo

Day 2..man I am beat!

305.0 lbs

Not a dramatic weight loss today..but a loss! I did not do a lot of moving around yesteday, so I am wondering how my eating habits will change once I do. I went to my Tae Kwon Do class in Odessa last night. In my own head I feel like I am not doing enough during class..but then again it looks like everyone in the class is either ten years younger than me or over 100 lbs lighter. I am keeping up with the class and even got complimented on the heights of my kicks which was awesome! I really missed this sport and it is the only form of exercise that I don't really see as exercise since it is fun for me. Recording an eating plan results in a bigger weight loss so recording yesterday must have worked. I was more aware of when and what I was eating. I was even gauging when I was and wasn't hungry. I did eat some fatty foods yesterday, but it was definitley less than what I was eating before. As far as my smoking goes, I only had barely a cigarrette whereas I was smoking probably a half a pack a day before! It was a challenge, but even though I did smoke I am happy with being able to hold back from buying a pack. It is also looking like I won't be able to go to class for a whole week..ugh..I sometimes hate that I have to work late but it comes with the territory. I will be surrounded by BBQ on Saturday for a benefit on behalf of a coworkers grandson. Good thing I don't like that stuff haha.

Breakfast
yogurt - 100 calories
Peanut butter 2 TBSP - 190 calories
2 slices honey wheat bread
Lunch
two hard boiled eggs with yolk
1 TBSP Mayo
2 slices of whole wheat bread
Cheez-it 100 calorie
Snack
Frozen fruit bar
Snack
1 slice of cheese
almonds 100 calories
cookies 100 calories
Weight Watchers lemon bar 90 calories
Dinner
6oz chicken (baked)
1 slice of cheese
1 TBSP mayo
Snack
Frozen fruit bar

Day 1..wow how many times have I said that?

305.4 lbs

That number scares me to death, but it was the number I faced when I got on the scale this morning. I am 25 years old and I am over 300 lbs..I feel like I should be at some AA meeting and talking to a group of people about this, but this will have to do for now. I have never seen myself as overweight. When I look in the mirror I see someone thinner than that number. Maybe that is one of the reasons I let it get this bad. I am also one of those people that tends to procrastinate to the point of doing something extremely last minute..like 30 minutes before class last minute. One of my doctors a few months ago told me that she was seeing sign of diabetes. It scared me, but apparently not so much. I year ago I had my gallbladder removed. So that means I cannot have fried, fatty and otherwise food that I feel that I cannot live without..what did I do after surgery? Went to a fast food place in town and got a chicken sandwich..I still eat fast food..I am not gonna lie here since I have already told you my weight...I even had some yesterday..wasn't very proud of myself for that one. In my mind, there always has to be a day one. I have had many different day ones' for many different reasons. Not only am I starting another weight loss journey, but I have also decided to quit smoking..probably not the brightest of ideas, but I figured that I might as well stop everything that is bad in order to have my life change.
I guess I will also talk about smoking here, since that is a big part of my life, but I will mostly focus on my weight loss for blogging purposes. I will also be writing down what I eat during the day, including my opinion about the food that I eat. I am hoping that I can get some feedback from people that are doing weight loss plans as well.

So here is to Day 1...the millionth Day 1...but hopefully the last.

Breakfast (9:30am approx)

Yoplait Light and Fat Free
Flavor: Very Vanilla
Calories: 110
My opinion: pretty tasty, considering that I stay away from fat free foods like they are the plague. Possibly a new favorite yogurt flavor as well

Glass of water #1

Snack

Special K Bar

Flavor: Strawberry

Calories: 90

My opinion: It could be better. It tastes a little bit worse than the cereal does. Wish that they could put the milk in it like they do with the cheerios and stuff. That would be fantastic.

Snack

Emerald Natural Almonds

No flavor..but unsalted!

Calories: 100

My opinion: Very Tasty! They also come in individual packs, which as every person trying to lose weight knows is important! I got these at Walmart down the snack aisle..this week they are by 2 for $5 and I believe there are 7 packs in a box. I may have to go back tonight for some more!

Glass of water #2

Lunch (3:00pm) - I am eating later than usual because I was suppose to have a lunch meeting, but it was cancelled

Two slices whole wheat bread

Peanut butter sandwich

Flavor: Creamy

Calories: 190 (2TBSP)

My opinion: I really like this brand better than other brands out there

Lunch Snack

Necatarine

Snack

Fudge Shoppe Mini Fudge Stripes

Flavor: Chocolate

Calories: 100

My opinion: Another tasty snack..maybe this diet is gonna be easier than I thought!

Dinner

6oz of chicken

2 slices of american cheese - 120 calories

1 TBSP of Mayo - 180 calories

Corn

Almonds - 100 calories

7-8pm Jones Tae Kwon Do

Snack

Gatorade - 125 Calories

Fruit bar - 80 Calories